Starting over again...

This is a little embarrassing.  I quit my job.  It was a dream job in some ways – I picked my hours.  I worked with fabulous people.  I enjoyed heading into work.  And yes, the regular paycheck was, well, regular. 

BUT. 

I had a growing restlessness every time I thought of my own desires to build MY business.  To be MY OWN BOSS.  And to make my own path.  To help people by helping them unclutter their lives through organizing or life coaching.

So that’s all good.  The embarrassing part is the fact that I have done this back and forth thing with employment vs self-employment numerous times over the years.  Advance…and retreat…advance….and retreat….ad infinitum.  I would move between insecurity and confidence.  And then beat myself up.  

Things have shifted for me this time around though and it feels different.  My big lessons:  It’s the trying again even after you’ve “failed.”  I don’t like using the word failure at all because I truly believe nothing is a failure if you learn from it. 

My other big, I mean BIG realization is this.  Criticizing and berating yourself for stumbling or even doing downright stoopid things – is not helpful. 

Only self-love and self-compassion can soothe and heal the shame that perceived failure can, and often does, bring. And this includes accepting yourself in all your flawed humanity.

Are struggling back and forth with a decision?  Be kind to yourself and realize it’s all good.  It really is.